First of all, I want to say THANK YOU to Murphy for welcoming me so graciously to the family of Murphy Toerner and Associates, Inc. in so many ways. Inviting me to contribute on her blog is just one of the many examples I could list, and I am grateful for the invitation and the warm hospitality. For my first offering, I will share a recent post from my own blog, but in the future, I will be posting unique writings here:
You may have heard this little saying before - "Let go, and let God." I suppose it has been made most popular through 12-step based recovery programs. It is also very wise.
I'm a problem solver. It's what I do for a living. Well, there's more to being a therapist than solving problems, but it is a big part. And I've always been a whiz at working jigsaw puzzles. I'd like to say I was the outstanding puzzle worker from a great puzzle-working family, but my Dad and my two sisters would probably quickly call me on that stretch. Anyway...
I was in my empty new office on Friday, looking at the desk that happened to be available, and envisioning the rest of the furniture I will be bringing during the coming week. And I was frustrated. No matter how I arranged and rearranged the puzzle pieces, I couldn't make them fit together into a pleasing big picture. If you know me at all, you know how locked into a problem or project I can get until I get it solved. And I was getting nowhere, except more frustrated and agitated. And here I was in my new office at Murphy Toerner and Associates, where I am so excited to be moving. Something was definitely wrong with this picture.
So, by the grace of God, I was able to put into practice some of the growth and insight He has provided me over the last year or two, and realized that what was wrong with this picture must have been my attitude. "Pause. Deep breath. Just walk away, Rog. No, I have to solve this all right now! Just walk away. Okay, okay. I guess I am just making things worse. Let it go, man. Just let it go. Wait - don't just let it go. Let go, and let God! Father, I am tired and frustrated, but this office and move really means a great deal to me, and I want to have the right attitude, as well as setting up the best office for my self and my clients. Please help me! Thanks."
Well, I strolled outside for a slow leisurely meander around the pond at CK Office Park, and finally settled on a stump overlooking the landscape. I could feel God stilling and refreshing me. My Father was reaching down, patting my back, and telling me He is with me, He is proud of me, and it will all be okay. He will take care of everthing. And then the beautiful gift of grace. "Hey son...what about using a sofa table, instead of a desk? ;)" Now, this may not sound like much as you read it in the context of my little blog post. But it hit me with thunderously calming joy. That was it! Aaaahhhh! The pieces came together in one glorious motion, and God gets all the glory. He is so good!
Just one more little reminder for me and you why it is ALWAYS so good to let go, and let God.
p.s. - Upon returning to my new office with my wife and new furniture (the sofa table looks great, by the way!) to meet the resident handyman to help me get moved in, I got a surprise. I discovered my unbridled zeal regarding how to arrange my new office had led to scuff marks on the new carpet. One more lesson learned.